Love More, Pray More, Golf More
It all depends what you mean by 'satisfied'. St Paul wrote that he didn't suppose he had attained full maturity but was simply forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, and that's pretty much how it is here, too.
The question presupposes a kind of implicit career path which, beginning as a dream, translates into reality (or not, as the case may be) at a certain pace. In human terms I have obviously 'peaked', since I'm in what is clearly my last job, living in the historic house where not only people like J. B. Lightfoot, B. F. Westcott and H. C. G. Moule lived before me but also great former bishops like John Cosin and Richard Trevor.
I get to worship in the little chapel where Michael Ramsey prayed, or in the big one where Cosin and Lightfoot are buried. I preach to unemployed miners (or, more likely, their widows) one day and university students the next. I have the huge privilege of being part of Durham Cathedral, one of the greatest buildings in the world, where Cuthbert is buried one end and Bede the other. I have the joy of being present for, and having a hand in, new Christians (baptism and confirmation), new ministries (licensing of clergy from parish to parish) and new vocations (working with ordinands and then ordaining them), so unlike a regular parish priest a good deal of what I do is 'special', and I'm conscious of that as a great privilege. I have a wonderful team of colleagues both locally and nationally. I belong to, and sometimes speak in, the House of Lords, the senior house of the 'mother of parliaments'. I have published books and articles on a wide range of subjects and I still enjoy writing as much as I ever did. I don't play enough golf but when I do I only have to hit three or four good shots in a round to come home happy (we all need something where we can enjoy doing badly).
Best of all, I have a beautiful, intelligent, feisty, gorgeous wife who keeps me well up to the mark; and four children who are the treasure of my life; and two grandchildren who are small but awesome. And -- remarkably considering I'm only 18 months off turning 60 -- two parents who are in good health.
So am I 'satisfied'? Of course I am; I'm not grumbling; many people would cheerfully change places with me. But OF COURSE I'M NOT, not at all. I would love to be able to pray for longer and with more depth. I would love to know the Bible much, much better. I would love to be a wiser pastor. I would love to be more holy -- at least, I think I would, I hope I'm not just saying that, because part of me means it badly and part of me is scared at the thought and the possible cost. I would love to be able to bring healing and hope to so many people with whom I come into contact and for whom I can often, so it seems, do really rather little (though one never knows, in God's strange economy). I would love to have finished my series of 'The New Testament for Everyone' -- just finished Acts, and still got James/Peter/Jude/John letters to go, and then Revelation. I would love to have written my big book on Paul, still in the planning stage after many years. I would love to have time -- or the relevant help -- to stay more on top of the mountains of paperwork which flood in every day and which my office simply can't cope with. I would love to be able to bring reconciliation to warring factions in the church, without compromising the truth of the gospel and the truths which flow directly from it.
So, no, I'm not satisfied. But I am very, very grateful to God for a million great blessings and to many, many friends for wonderful support and encouragement. Anyway, who needs satisfaction? Oscar Wilde described a cigarette as 'the perfect type of perfect pleasure -- it is exquisite, but leaves you unsatisfied'. Whatever else Wilde knew, he knew that satisfaction and happiness are not the same thing.
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Posted by: Soja John Thaikattil, Sydney, Australia | May 22, 2007 2:13 AM
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More power to your pen, Your "For everyone" series is for our generation what Wm Barclay's NT Daily Study bible was for a previous generation.
Keep up the excellent work.
Posted by: Jim Reid | May 21, 2007 5:00 PM
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really looking forward to the 4th book. The first three gave me and so many other so much to chew on.
Posted by: Craig | May 21, 2007 12:52 PM
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Bishop Wright,
You might want to consider a Buddhist point of view:
Your imagined accomplishments and your satisfaction in them are illusory and impermanent and already dissolving. They have no inherent identity.
If you were fully aware and present in the present moment you would know that your "accomplishments" and your "satisfaction" in them are merely impediments on your path to enlightenment.
I wish you clear sight and enlightenment as soon as may be.
Posted by: Norrie Hoyt | May 19, 2007 8:28 PM
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This is actually about where I usually say, "Would you like some attention?"
I'm thinking it's not about what you say it's about.
Yes, Frank, there are people out there in the world who think they actually have every right to kill you. Some take it a step further and think everything else they do to you is great mercy cause they *stopped short* of killing you.
Then call you 'ungrateful' ('unspiritual,' thus more undeserving of their tender mercies,) for not 'forgiving' (endorsing) their actions.
Sometimes people like that do very bad things against our persons, in the belief that those sorts of violations will force one to accept the authority by which they are done, or else accept that there's a world in which unjust things happen... which they also try to teach us is unacceptable to *think* because that, by the same 'logic' would mean there is no hope or meaning at all.
Yes, it's lies.
Yes, it's not safe out here.
But it's not all that horrible, either.
Would you like some attention?
Posted by: Paganplace | May 19, 2007 8:05 PM
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Cause, frankly, this guy's talking about an Oh-so-Anglican life and you just can't seem to turn your eyes away from the mirror that Koran would seem to be for ya. :)
Posted by: Paganplace | May 19, 2007 7:47 PM
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So.... Again with ....what, Frank?
Have you heard the Divine Word of the Bush and want a pre-emptive war of some kind?
Posted by: Paganplace | May 19, 2007 7:42 PM
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its not enough if you follow this:
The Hadith No. 284, The Muslim, volume one, says that any Jew or Christian, who heard of Muhammad but did not convert to Islam, and died in disbelief, would rot in hell! Thus Islam withdraws from all Jews and Christians the right to believe in their faiths, and pratice them as such.
"The unbelievers of the People of the Book and the idolators shall be in the Fire of Hell therein dwelling for ever; those are the worst of creatures. But those who believe, and do righteous deeds, those are the best of creatures..." (XCVIII: The Clear Sign: 5)
Here those Jews and Christians, who spurn Islam, have been lumped together with the idolators such as the Hindus, and classified as 'the worst of creatures'. Therefore the Koran commands:
"O believers, take not as your friends those of them, who were given the Book before you, and the unbelievers, who take your religion in mockery and as a sport..." (V: The Table: 60)
"The true believers say: Has not God ordered a chapter that commands the holy war" (Sura 47:22); or elsewhere: "Kill the idolaters wherever you find them, imprison them, besiege them, ambush them" (Sura 9:5); and, "Make war on unbelievers" (Sura 9:29). "When you come upon unbelievers, massacre them, tighten the bands of the captives that you will have taken. Then you will set them free, or you will release them for a ransom" (Sura 8:57).
"To Allah, there are no animals viler than those who do not believe and remain unbelievers" (Sura 8:57). That is why it is necessary to Islamize them by force and by humiliation. And those who resist Islam and its founder must be chastised, according to the Koran: "Here is the fate of those who fight Allah and his messenger: you will put them to death or you will make them suffer the torture of the cross; you will cut their hands and their feet alternately. They will be driven from the country" (Sura 5:37).
"Do not display cowardice, and do not call the infidels to peace when you are superior to them" (Sura 47:22). THIS ALLOWS THEM TO MAKE PEACE SO THAT THEY CAN MAKE WAR AGAIN LATER.
4.89": They desire that you should disbelieve as they have disbelieved, so that you might be (all) alike; therefore take not from among them friends until they fly (their homes) in Allah's way; but if they turn back, then seize them and kill them wherever you find them, and take not from among them a friend or a helper.
"4.90": Except those who reach a people between whom and you there is an alliance, or who come to you, their hearts shrinking from fighting you or fighting their own people; and if Allah had pleased, He would have given them power over you, so that they should have certainly fought you; therefore if they withdraw from you and do not fight you and offer you peace, then Allah has not given you a way against them.
"4.91": You will find others who desire that they should be safe from you and secure from their own people; as often as they are sent back to the mischief they get thrown into it headlong; therefore if they do not withdraw from you, and (do not) offer you peace and restrain their hands, then seize them and kill them wherever you find them; and against these We have given you a clear authority."
Posted by: frank collins | May 18, 2007 3:14 PM
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Love More,Pray More,...
They pray 150 times in a month,1800 times in a year.
Isnt it enough?
Do they learn what Love is??
Posted by: halozcel | May 18, 2007 6:23 AM
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Imagine the hubris that would be required to be so self-satisfied that you felt no need for improvement. I'm still working on it, but I don't speak or read Hebrew, my Latin is fading fast, and I'm often in the grip of one or more of the seven deadly sins.
On the other hand I have a great family and an enjoyable home life, and a job that enables me to help others.
Maybe it's all a balancing act.
Posted by: Viejita del oeste | May 18, 2007 3:21 AM
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Dear Bishop Wright
I do tend to think that one can be content without being satisfied (now is that an oxymoron?) - meaning that one can be content in the present about what one has achieved so far without being satisfied about what one would like to achieve in the future.
With eighteen months left to go before your sixtieth birthday, you have a long long way to go yet - by the standards of Dom Bede Griffiths, that would be nearly another thirty years! I'm sure you have plenty of time to do all the things you feel you need to get done. And if you should die earlier and don't get to do it all, so what? Children who die young don't get much done, and yet I'm sure their lives have fulfilled the purpose for which God created them.
Thank you for all that you have done and continue to do. God speaks to us in your person as no one else has or ever will. That is enough to feel satisfied about.
Soja John Thaikattil
Sydney, Australia